1) Be pretty, frivolous, fun and nice to everyone.
2) Take
time to listen to people, they like talking about themselves, be kind to them
and help whenever you’re needed.
3) Never
betray me, never tell them what I’m thinking.
The idea
was that the robot would take over my body and go to work or wherever and be my
social face. This worked really well. The robot was universally loved by
everyone. I was lost in awe over how she could be so unfailingly positive about
everything and so amazingly nice. I wondered why people didn’t want to throw up
all over the robot, she was so fucking lovely. She helped people when they
needed her and genuinely seemed to care about them. She was invited to all the
best parties - the in-crowd which had shunned me thought she was fantastic.
When I came home, I could dispense with the robot and be myself, but time for
this became shorter and shorter, what with all the people phoning, visiting
etc, there was very little time left for me. She stuck so faithfully to that
third rule; I could never express myself at any time, except when I was alone.
The robot
fell in love and got married to a really nice guy. Would I have fallen in love
with him? I don’t know. A guy like that wouldn’t have even looked at me.
Besides, it didn’t really matter, the sort of men I fall in love with have
always been unobtainable; so the robot may as well get a chance for happiness,
while I indulge in dreams and fantasies of others ... Everyone said how
gorgeous the robot looked in her wedding dress. She shone that day, going round
smiling at all of them. I wanted to vomit.
Now, the robot is a popular, successful business woman
with a wonderful husband and friends. Obviously, he’s always around now, so
there’s no time for me. I am trapped inside her, looking at the world through
her eyes, watching her be such a saint and going through her motions. There’s
no escape, because like I say, she never betrays me. She’s done such an amazing
job and I hate her for it. No-one knows who I am. I may as well not exist. I am
... lonely.
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