I’ve
survived here for eleven months since Lights Off day. The people in the Societies say it was an
electromagnetic pulse that fried everything, all the circuits, all the little
chips. Well whatever, there’s no more electricity
which means no gas, no digital or analogue systems, nothing. It’s dangerous for me to stay alone, but I don’t
want to go and live in a Society - it’s funny how things revert once technology
is lost, all remnants of civilisation slip away. Men are the physically stronger so they rule
and we’re a commodity. Even though so
many have died in childbirth, the urge to keep breeding continues.
I eat, the
room is warm, I strip and wash myself with freezing water, the fire is slowly
dying; I’ve no fuel to light another one, so I dress quickly. I sing as I return the water containers to
the roof - a popular tune from before, when there was music, office jobs, Friday
nights out with the girls ...
Later I hear
noise downstairs. Someone is in my building. I manage to get up before the door is kicked
in. From the last ember light I make out
the silhouette of a man; “You have food?”
“I have nothing,”
I answer.He comes in anyway, closing and barricading the door with my furniture. It’s completely dark now, I can hear him breathing. “I heard you singing before,” he said, “I used to like that song.” His hands find me in the dark, as I try to hide against the wall. He presses his body against me, “I’ve been lonely; will you help with that?”
I feel his lips on mine and take in the scent of him, his tongue slides into my mouth. I don’t protest, he asked for consent (I think), that’s unusual, he might be all right. He’s tall and his body is lean, bones against my bones. I run my hands through his thick hair and hear him moan softly as he senses my compliance. The desire grips me then, desperation for some fierce taste of joy in these dark nights of nothing. I lead him through the blackness to my bed, laughing a little when we stumble over stuff. “I’ve been alone too,” I say as we lay down, him over me. I buck my hips against his, feeling his desire for ... well, a woman, he hasn’t seen me nor I, him.
Afterwards
we lay together, his arms are round me and I can hear the rain against the
window, upstairs the supply of water will be replenished. We'll drink tomorrow then and perhaps find
fuel and food together. I hope he’ll
stay. I await dawn and the weak light of the
winter sun which will show me the face of my new lover.
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